The grades haven't come out yet, and I am restless in the long wait.
Yesterday, the grades came out. At that moment, I seemed to hear a sound, not the sound of flowers blooming, but the sound of a broken heart, the sound of shattered dreams. At that moment, I deeply understood - how far dreams are from reality, and I had to lower my proud head.
On the eve of the exam, I remember how high-spirited I was, thinking that everything was within my grasp, and fantasizing about how wonderful life would be in the future. I told my parents, "Your son will not disappoint you, just wait and see!" My parents couldn't stop smiling, who doesn't want their child to succeed? Now I realize how arrogant I was back then!
The scores came out, and I was speechless, lost, and desperate. The disappointed look in my parents' and teachers' eyes was the biggest punishment for me, even though they didn't say much. Suddenly, I felt ashamed to face the people of Jiangdong, but I knew that I was even more ashamed to face my parents. They have worked hard for my whole life, endured so much hardship, and even loved me more than themselves! And what have I given them? Illness? Gray hair? Wrinkles? Or an endless worry in their hearts? Their constant reassurances echoed in my ears: "Child, it's okay if you didn't do well this time, just do better in the future." "Child, you are already amazing! Just do your best!" "Child, don't lose heart..."
I sat weakly in the chair, staring blankly out the window, wondering if the distance between dreams and reality was really that far.
As the scores came down, my school life also came to an end, and I embarked on a strange, difficult, and challenging path.
Because youth is no longer here, so...
I hope my good friends can go further and better. Fuko wishes you all the best.